Konnichiwa Journal-chan,

Sorries to everyone for the lack of journal updates but I have good reason I assure you.

*Emo Journal Warning ^.^ *
So I'm just going to start out by saying Life Sucks and Then You Die.
Well for me it does at least.

*My family sucks.
Thanks to my mother we are 22,000$ in debt so I can't afford to buy the rest of my cosplay >.<
So if I even get it done don't expect much, cheep wig is a very high possibility at the moment.
So to deal with mothers Alcohol issues she is being admitted into a psyc ward next Monday. It was meant to be today but noooo they ran out of beds "apparently".
So I have yet another week to spend with my apparent "mother" and another week she gets to spend hocking off my inheritance.
Most nights my boyfriend has been at his friends so I don't have that as a happy outlet anymore either.
Plus thanks to Kira's mother he isn't aloud in my house anymore
So my home life just went from "sucking" to "Pass me my noose Nii-chan"

*Lack of friends.
As you know I started at a new school this year. I still haven't made any friends that I didn't already have there.
My "bestfriend" doesn't want to hear anything about how I can't handle my life at the moment and is moving back to our old school.
So the only people I have at school is Sponge, who is in ONE of my SEVEN classes.
Because of course my REAL friends go to different schools or live halfway across the world.
Also Bad rumors about me are the norm at my school.
I only have 5 real friends hear and one of them is offing themselves on Thursday.
(and don't give me the whole "you can save them!!" because I can't and believe me I have tried)
I fucking love this girl and as of Thursday she will be gone.
So I am not in a very good mood at the moment.
*End Emo Rant*

*Explaination
Sorry for all that and I really don't want comments going "aww are you ok?"
Because I'm not and that is just stupid
I didn't post this to get attention or sympathy.
I posted it because well this is my journal, and I figure I can put whatever I damn feel like.
Plus it isn't like I can tell everyone this normally so the venting helps =]
Only very few people one dA know my true identity so it doesn't bother me telling everyone
Even if the whole world found out meh idc just another thing to add to my list.

*End Emo Rant*

On to a much lighter AWESOME note
MANIFEST IN EXACTLY A MONTH TODAY
*dances*
I am so fucking excited~~
But I still haven't finished my cosplay
Still need
-Jacket
-Rosary
-Belt
-Buckle
-Wig
-Nail Polish
SO I MUST HURRY!
I am going to try and get most of it this weekend =]
If money allows it =[
If not feel free to drop by in St. Kilda friday night and I'll give you a good rate

I have started witting once again and I feels really good
I am witting an LxMisa (I know I know ew but promise it gets good) fanfiction as a prelude to another.
I it really hard to get Misa for Idolizing Light to screwing L though...
TIPS AND HINTS ARE MOST WELCOME =]
I still really want to write my BB one though but it will be hard to write from his PoV so I am using this as practice.
Dumb Blond you see is alot easier then Serial Killer
and my Mello and Matt Wammy's house oneshot shall be up soon
(yes it is nearly 4000 words but it is still a oneshot dammit!)
I have found a beta!!
YAYS
Boyfriend shall beta my non-yaoi stories (damn penis fear lolsss)
and Kira shall beta my yaoi stories (YAY)

On the note of Yaoi, Gay marriage isn't legal is Australia >.<
So Kira and I were in the city buying Kannazaki no Miko and came across a protest
So we signed to petition for Gay Marriage rights =]
We also got a flier to a bigger rally that we are going to go to
Sept Kira is scared people will mistaken him for being gay and flirt with him because of how he dresses
Poor Kira-chan lols
OMFG I HAVE SOME LOL
My aunt added me on facebook >.<
And stupid me forgot to change my orientation...
and KIRA THE DOUCHE slipped up in front of my brother!!
So I fear my family know
I think I shall be castrated for being bi now =[
damn kids
but I think they may already know because I have a folder on my computer dedicated to panty shots....
but MEH I really couldn't care less anymore lols
the only thing that bothers me is I can't post sex scenes from MM fanfics as my status anymore
*sobs*

but yeah apologies for my emo-ness in this journal~~
and I shall all talk to you soons

Baiiu

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